Sunday, 25 July 2010


I closed my eyes last night in darkness...

and today I wake up
witnessing the beautiful early stripes of light from the sun
on this sunny Sunday
For a moment I'm glad as I do feel like thanking HIM for this another one day for me

hmm...pretty blessed..still thinking about the Prime Merlinean??
well, it's so unexpected to watch some humor scenes in The Sorcerer's Apprentice...but I did enjoyed it.

And today I wake up normally, (thankful for not having any inordinate changes)
so I glare thoughtlessly at the window...
and the thoughtless mind suddenly filled with these reminders:
1)new materials
2)lab presentation
3)e&m pre-thesis

okay, this is to prove that i am an ordinary human...
so this sunny Sunday will be spent indoors, better said in front of this laptop screen....again...
(what is it too special about sunny day in Malaysia anyway?)

definitely no shopping...
(the cooking part will be cut into short as well...)
at least I'd enjoyed one movie last that should be enough for this weekend.

Let's finish the tasks....

Sri, please stop with the bla,bla,bla things....stop babbling, keep your gratitude...say thanks to lecturers for these educational stuffs.

~sunny Sunday....urghhh~

Saturday, 24 July 2010

-'her' dilemma-

I guess she would never understand the aching rhythm of the empty hole... was a blissful night with tranquil breeze of fragrant fresh air and the sky were so bright with moonlight and the dazzling stars. She sat there in front of the source of one's thought which was verbally delivered.

She was totally there for the first few moments, listening and focusing as the beauty of the knowledge and thoughts ascertained her about the truth of the most alienated way of life, as the soft voice convinced her about having the most wanted ending...

...and she was so thankful for having the chance to feel the smooth comforting touch on the cracked edges of her empty hole...again...beautiful!

But suddenly she felt the urgency to make others feel the touch
She felt the hopeful desire to reach one's heart with that similar touch
She lifted her eyes like she was searching for one bright face..

which was not there...

and she didn't have enough caurage to even dream about having that one soul for her to reach again...~sigh~

And there she stood, staring at the night sky...and started the loudest inaudible cry of disappointment... and gratitude...

"I know this is wonderful enough...for my heart is again dewed with the sense of worshiping from the very deep core of me...for my mind is trying hardly to follow the path shown..."

but couldn't she just have that one's hand so that she would easily know how that one's soul is doing?

couldn't she just beg for the companion?

couldn't she just try to pull that someone's hand out of those deceiving and blinding bright rays?

she desperately wanted to be safe...but she couldn't stand leaving that one soul unsafe...and that'll be too risky for her...

and she really had to move on...

despite the reluctance to let go of that one last thought.....

"Ya Allahal Hafiiz, Ya Muhaimin, Ya Muqallibal quluub....."

"Hanya padaMu selayaknya segala urusan itu diserahkan...iringilah pemeliharaanMu ke atas urusan2 yang tak mampu kami sempurnakan...takdirkanlah kesudahan yang terbaik bagi kami......."


Wednesday, 21 July 2010

Meyer's THE HOST

"Our world has been invaded by an unseen enemy. Humans become hosts for these invaders, their minds taken over while their bodies remain intact and continue their lives apparently unchanged. Most of humanity has succumbed.

When Melanie, one of the few remaining "wild" humans, is captured, she is certain it is her end. Wanderer, the invading "soul" who has been given Melanie's body, was warned about the challenges of living inside a human: the overwhelming emotions, the glut of senses, the too-vivid memories. But there was one difficulty Wanderer didn't expect: the former tenant of her body refusing to relinquish possession of her mind.

When outside forces make Wanderer and Melanie unwilling allies, they set off on a dangerous and uncertain search for the man they both love."

...and I'm counting days to let myself drowned in somewhat the absurdity of an imagination....

Saturday, 17 July 2010


Tau tak how much pleasure I gain by reading???
hahha...sungguh skema bunyiknye...but reading does help a lot in some not-so-good conditions.

Oh, it's either my case
reading as an escapism from emptiness or emptiness gives me space to read.

Lately I am somehow so intense with fictions...mcm budak2 yg baru nak kenal novel...glancing years back when I was in my lower-secondary, reading 'was' my passion. And suddenly, somehow, i was..urm..kinda distracted with the overwhelming excitement of....hurm...something new in my life...

and that 'new' thing is it left me confused, immobilized by the sorrow...really, it was that terrible! but i'm now super-duper fine!
and the good thing is, I started to seek for any passion that I used to have before...and 'reading' is the answer.

Surprisingly, all the book-authors are successfully helping me in creating a world of imagination...leaving all the useless thoughts outside the book covers..the thoughts of drowning any deeper in sadness...stop it!
By reading, I start to notice so many parts of life I'd never well as parts that I'd forgotten for a long time. Urm...that's pretty.. it's time to get some light fun to make me feel buoyant...

And I'm now so childishly driven away by the words of descriptions and comparisons in my reading...that it leads to a wanted ignorance about so many things....(^_-)

Sunday, 4 July 2010


Ok2...this is my 1st post about tag-mengetag ni coz b4 thiS blog ini amat2lah tertutup...
1st of all...sory sgt2 kt shida coz lmbt sgt respond...da lme sgt xon9..

Ok, this is the topic,

Bismillahirrahmaanirrahimm....let's begin!

1) Sri Sazila-anak bongsu dr 7 adik-bradik, so xleh nak lari la kalo org ckp sy manja but at the same time...sri sazila ni garang gak org nye...hehe...

2) umur nak masuk 20thn dah (insyaAllah muda lg kot..) stakat ni xbnyk sgt la skill yg ad...masak pun reti sket2 jek..menjahit lngsung la tak..nk mengemas??boleh tp mmg bertahun la nk siap...kesimpulannye,sy amatlah slow dlm kebanyakan keje..

3)keras kepala..keras hati..kuat melawan...these are my nature..but sumtimes reaksi2 memprotes tu stakat terbuku dlm hati je..coz kdg2 tu ad gak la bisikan2 yg agak matang n sruh sy bersabar...

4)SANGAT KUAT CEMBURU...haa!! gilo x?? seryesly this is what i'm trying to avoid..

5)Pssttt...yg ni kene ckp KUAT MENANGIS...dpn org suka blagak macho n wat muka tabah tp rupa2nya bleh dicalonkan sbgai RATU AIR MATA di bawah bantal! Hmm, well said, woman's silence is their loudest cry...hahha..

6) Possess a fluctuating self-confidence. I can be so will-driven at times but normally I'm too timid to make an action. Always need a person to convince me about doing this and that. Easily demotivated when there's nobody around to push me ahead.

7) erm...ap lg yek?sensitif??? biasala tu for a woman to be kan?

I'd finished the task...time kasih kt shida coz igt kt kwn lamamu ini..hehe..
then it's my turn la kn to tag other ppl...rite?

Okay, here u are...insan2 terpilih:
1) cik jauha amira-the most talkative lawyer to be..
2) miss 'weeeeed'-the hottest diva
3) hunny adda-ikon PDRM alias bakal KPN..hehhe..