I'm feeling good today after going through three sleepless nights. I don't know why I let myself drowned in worry and sadness for these few days. I seek for advices from friends but it's hard to totally tell them about what had happened. Surely, they would say..
"take it easy la Sri...bnde kecik je pun..."
"We're just 19....so, chill out..."
"You just need o change the way you view the world..."
Thanks for the advice Ms Oda...
At first, I was uncertain about my ability to face this. But realities are brought to us for reasons. How should we know ya? But I'm just afraid of losing...I'm afraid of falling again...
Then suddenly this comes to my mind:
"I'm frightened by what I see...
but somehow I know that there's much more to come...
Immobalized by my fear...
and soon to be blinded dy tears
~I know I can stop the pain if I will it all away~
Don't turn away
don't give in to the pain
Don't try to hide
Though they're screaming your name
Don't close your eyes
God knows what lies behind them
Don't turn out the light
Never sleep never die...."
Come on la Sri...
just face it, ok?
Instead of feeling like killing people, I suddenly recover my emotion by simply performing solat and reciting Quran...
Don't know la how life would be without Al-Quran and thinking about HIM...