Thursday, 5 November 2009

~I feel good~

I'm feeling good today after going through three sleepless nights. I don't know why I let myself drowned in worry and sadness for these few days. I seek for advices from friends but it's hard to totally tell them about what had happened. Surely, they would say..

"take it easy la Sri...bnde kecik je pun..."

Raudhah said:
"We're just 19....so, chill out..."
"You just need o change the way you view the world..."
Thanks for the advice Ms Oda...

At first, I was uncertain about my ability to face this. But realities are brought to us for reasons. How should we know ya? But I'm just afraid of losing...I'm afraid of falling again...

Then suddenly this comes to my mind:

"I'm frightened by what I see...
but somehow I know that there's much more to come...
Immobalized by my fear...
and soon to be blinded dy tears

~I know I can stop the pain if I will it all away~

Don't turn away
don't give in to the pain
Don't try to hide
Though they're screaming your name
Don't close your eyes
God knows what lies behind them
Don't turn out the light
Never sleep never die...."


Come on la Sri...
just face it, ok?

Instead of feeling like killing people, I suddenly recover my emotion by simply performing solat and reciting Quran...

~relief~

Don't know la how life would be without Al-Quran and thinking about HIM...

=Subhanallah...Alhamdulillah~

Tuesday, 3 November 2009

my role

I feel like I can do nothing good about this.
If only the person know that I never stop mentioning (his/her) name in my prayer. I was uncertain when I thought about how on earth can I be a good friend. In this kind of situation(ours)...i know that it's too risky, so difficult...but I just did it. Trying so hard to help, to guide...(erk..)and it hurts a lot to realize that, so often...the efforts are useless!

Keep on trying...I never want to say these words
"mungkin bkn rzki sy utk melunakkan ht awk dgn janji2 Allah..."
this is so painful.
only after listening to those words, I realized that I'm losing something precious...

keras sgt ht wk2 tu smpai manusia plg tabah pun pts asa...pas2 sedih...
haha...

And now, it's my turn to play a significant role in someone's life...

I keep on praying that I'll never give up in doing good things for this person..coz I've been focusing my thought on this person till I can no longer accept anyone else in life.